The other day i was thinking about that quote “they asked me for drugs, so i told them about your smile” or however it goes and i was like yea his smile and his laugh are like my drug, i can’t get enough, i just want it all around me all the time. Now that it is today and he has broken my heart, seeing him smile or even knowing he is happy while i lay in bed and cry makes me realize that feelings are only relevant in the moment. Right now his smile makes me nauseous and i wouldn’t tell my worst enemy about it. But these feelings too shall pass, as will this moment.
This is terrifying